Well, things around here have been a bit weird lately. Harrison’s birthday was a hit and we had fun, but since then I’ve been feeling weird. I don’t feel like I’m stimulating him enough. Everyone I’ve talked to says I do and they think I do a great job with him, but I just don’t feel like I’m doing everything I could, yet I can’t figure out what I could do better. We play. We go for walks. We go swimming. We read tons and tons of books. We giggle. We tickle. We work on walking and talking. But I just feel blah.
Brian’s store got robbed at gunpoint last week, and ever since then I’ve been freaked out if I can’t get a hold of him. Thanks goodness he wasn’t there at the time, or I’d be even more freaked out. I knew moving here would be different, but I didn’t know how different. I get homesick once in a while, but I don’t think this is homesickness, I’m not sure what it is. I’m not depressed. I have a great hubby and an amazing son. I have fun all the time with Brian and Harrison. I live in Florida, for heaven’s sake, it is beautiful here all the time. I just don’t feel like me. I know this isn’t making any sense, but I was hoping if I “verablized” it, maybe it would to me.
I had two really bad days in a row last week, and the second one left me in tears, and I’m not a crier when it comes to everyday life. The dog peed in the house, the cat was meowing, and I was trying to get one of Harrison’s new toys to work and I couldn’t, and next thing I know, I’m bawling and Harrison is patting my face and petting my tears away. What is wrong with me? That’s the only time I’ve cried. I just don’t feel like I’m on my game.
Maybe I’m just missing my husband since he is gone all the time. I know I’m missing my family, but I don’t think that is it.
Any thoughts would be appreciated.
What are you feeding your 1-year old? I feel like Harrison gets the same stuff all the time and I’m trying to mix it up!