I have never been so tired in my life! Okay, well, except for the first trimester where I slept more than I was awake! I am just super tired. In fact, I had a half-an-hour nap today and it was heaven.
I also can’t believe how carrying around a baby can be so much work, and this one isn’t even out of me yet! I just find that walking around the grocery store is getting to be a hassle. I think it is funny when I try to get out of a chair or off the couch that I have to get a rocking motion going before I can get out!
Regardless of all of that — I LOVE BEING PREGNANT! It is amazing to know that we created life and I’m carrying this beautiful little one inside of me. I love the kicks. I love to feel when it wakes up and kind of stretches and I can feel it on both sides of my stomach. I love feeling the baby hiccup. I love the ultrasound pictures.
But…
I’m starting to get a little scared. I’m good at this mommy thing while the baby is inside of me…how will I be when it is out? I am scared that I won’t have that maternal instinct. I am scared that I won’t find time for my husband. I am scared that time will fly so quickly that I won’t remember those early morning hours with my baby and me, just us.
But…
I know that my mom was the best example I could have asked for and I will try to follow in her footsteps. I know that I have my mom, sisters and sister-in-laws and a mother-in-law to help me get through some of the baby stuff I don’t know. I know that my husband is patient and loving and will be there when I’m at my witt’s end. I know that I can make it through this one minute at a time, one hour at a time and one day at a time. I know I am strong.
But…
I’m still a little scared….